Pills, pills, pills...

Breakfast!

There's my breakfast pill dose.  Not too bad compared to some Lymies out there, only  nine pills!

The hardest thing about pills is the scheduling.  Seriously.  Take some pills with food.  Take some pills on an empty stomach.  Take some pills with certain kinds of foods.  Sometimes I'm having a hard time finding time to eat in my pill schedule.  No more snacking.  No more mindless eating.  Nope.  Meals are planned.  Pills are planned.  Everything is planned. I have a schedule to maintain.  Sometimes I'll find myself so hungry, but know that I shouldn't eat because I need to take my pills on an empty stomach.  Then I choose between pills and food.  I usually choose pills, just because I'm feeling militant.  But of course, I"m losing some weight now.  While that may get me back into my black miniskirt, I don't necessarily like the whole losing weight like this plan.

Ugh.

In order to make this whole pill organization thing possible, I got some of these snazzy pill organizers.  You know you're a Lymie when you use a weekly pill organizer for a single day.


I know own 4 of these little beauties, which means I only have to sit down and open all my pill bottles up for refills every four days.  Instead of using one pill organizer for a week, I use it for one day.  Each "day" slot I use for a single serving of pills - when I wake up, with breakfast, midmorning,etc.  It helps me remember what to take at what time of day, and know that all my drugs for that day (with teh exception of liquids and my refrigerated probiotics) are in one place.  Grab and go.  I made a chart of all my pills and what to take when to help me when I'm filling them. .  It has changed my pill life, seriously.  Not having to think about which pills i need when is such a blessing.

I'm finally having Herx reactions.  And the antibiotics are starting to take their toll.  I really felt great for a few weeks, but last week something shifted.  I feel like my adrenals are exhausted (literally, they hurt, and I'm getting dark circles).  The sides of my torso ache under my ribcage. I'm feeling a little flare up of the old bacterial vaginitis/yeast infection again (despite taking Diflucan and loads of probiotics).  My digestion is slowing down, and I feel cold. Ugh.  I'm getting stomach aches after meals again, something that I had let go of quite some time ago.  The chills are dreadful. I feel a weird shaky shiver up my spine and into my neck.  My skin feels like it is crawling.  And I have a searing headache that comes and goes.  My feed hurt. My eyes burn. I feel like I have the flu.

Herx, anyone?

It has only been four weeks!  How am I going to survive taking this for an undetermined amount of time?!

I'm struggling feeling pity for friends who are sick and complaining about body pain or aches.  I feel this way EVERYDAY.  I still go to work.  Taking a nap won't make it go away.  It won't get better in a couple days.  It will be there tomorrow, and it was here  yesterday.  It is here now.  It is here all the time, just in varying degrees of severity. Even a good day has the presence of a weight on my shoulders.  Combined with Seasonal Affective Disorder, my positive spirit is getting a little worn down.  Okay, not too severely, I'm still generally bubbly, despite feeling crappy. But I do feel a bit alone, isolated, and misunderstood by most of the people I see everyday.  And I do feel like holing up in my apartment, siting on my couch, and watching Law & Order SVU on Netflix.

On the bright side, I shoudl be recieving my very own portable FAR Infrared Sauna on Wednesday. I can't wait.   I love love love infrared saunas and they make me feel relaly good, so I bought one.  And I should be finding out the results of my last IGeneX lab (Bart, Babs) tomorrow.  So, more to come.

Having this blog is helpful, because it gives me something to do while I sit and wait until I can lie down.  I have to wait at least 30 minutes after taking Minocin before I can go horizontal, so this is a perfect distraction! :)

xoxo

Kim